It’s been awhile since I have written anything. Not because I didn’t have anything to write about, but because I had too much to write about to decide what I wanted to put on paper. Have you ever had so much going on in your life, good or bad, that you just couldn’t talk about it all? Well, that has been me the last week or two. I’ll mention a couple of things.
Being back to work has been great, but last week at work kicked my butt. It was just really busy with a lot of sick patients all 3 of my 12 hour shifts. I felt like I just couldn’t catch a break last week. (Thank you full moon). I walked out of my last shift feeling so drained and exhausted. There has also been a few things happening in my personal life that have taken a toll on me as well. (I’m not ready to talk about those things yet). But with that being said, I’ve noticed that on my days off I’m either tired and taking a nap off and on throughout the day, or awake but feeling really antsy. I’m not sure if the mixture of emotions the last two weeks are effecting my anxiety and causing me to feel this way or not, but I can tell you that I don’t like it.
Usually when I have anxiety, I can pinpoint it right away, but this feels different. I have this feeling of boredom and exhaustion but antsy and wanting company. If you don’t have anxiety, then it might be hard to understand and that’s okay. I’ve been off work for 3 days and I can always tell when I need to go back. Most people would be excited to be off work for 3+ days, and don’t get me wrong it’s been nice, but I only enjoy it when most of my days involve spending time with someone else. I guess being an only child and living alone for 3 years now catches up with me at times. (No I don’t want a roommate). Fortunately I go back to work tomorrow. I get to be around people and my friends. I’m able to put my mind to work to think about something other than the negative things going on in my life. I have something to focus on to keep me busy.
If you have ever experienced anxiety, what are some ways that help you get through it? I would love for you to share! I’m hoping tomorrow, God willing, will be a really good day. I hope it’s a good day for all of you too! 🙂